I'm sorry about your mom, I've been gone for so long its like I don't live here it's like I've never lived here and I feel like a ghost, floating above my skull and everything that I need is drifting away. And now, I only, come back on holidays. And soon, I won't even come back at all. And it's weird, and it's so hard, to not feel nostalgic, doing the same things that we did five years ago and I just thought you should know.
That I've not been ok for 3 years,
that I've watched my friends disappear,
and now they live in government housing, selling drugs to survive.
I don't think theres anything wrong with that life, not like I know how to even live mine.
Maybe I'll come back, just for a moment, and disappear again. Maybe I'll come back, just to feel your hair again, or maybe I won't come back at all.
And I just thought you should know, that the things that I have seen, have made me way more lost than I should be. And I've accepted that I know nothing, and I probably never will. And thats fine, thats fine.
released December 6, 2016
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